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About NIKAOS, JOR & LMP

Life is hard, and change is inevitable. Sometimes it is welcomed, and other times it is overwhelming. As a child abuse survivor who has struggled with mental illness such as anxiety, PTSD, ADD, OCD, addictions and mountains of self-worth issues, I now find myself resilient, empowered and filled with gratitude most days. But that doesn't come easy or natural. It takes intentionality. It takes faith. It takes patient endurance. It takes incredible amounts of self-awareness, honesty, humility, and courage to make choices that are the polar opposite of how you feel. It takes vision and determination, hope and healing. I'm glad you stopped by my blog, I hope you found something of use as I transparently share my journey with others, the highs and the lows, the wisdom and the blunders, in the hopes that my mess becomes a message of hope, encouragement, and strength for even one person. .

SOAP: Day Fourteen – Open Your Eyes!

If you want to know how you can begin doing the will of God, simply ask Him to break your heart for what breaks His. You will begin to see pain, suffering, oppression, poverty, loneliness, fear, sickness and a host of other human sufferings that God wants to use us to step into, to be His heart, hands, and feet. But we can’t do that until we see through His eyes.   Continue reading

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Can Christians Be Depressed Part III – The Road Ahead

The choice is ours, it always has been.

Our freedom or captivity, depression or joy, has nothing to do with the outside circumstances surrounding our life. But they have everything to do with the condition of our heart, soul, mind, body, and spirit.  Continue reading

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Can Christians Be Depressed Part II – An Honest Look Inside Pandora’s Box

It’s all about the onion layers…

It’s like we need to wade through the however many years of carnality and misconceptions we came to believe about ourselves, others, and God before we can see the real Imago Dei in each of us.   Continue reading

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SOAP: Day Thirteen – I Who Speak To You Am He (WOW)

We aren’t supposed to follow God when we feel like it or when it’s convenient. We need to ensure the Armour is strong every minute of every day. That process may look different for everyone, but I suspect the heart of everyone looks the same to Jesus when we are worshipping properly.  Continue reading

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Fear The Hardened Heart

So I say, let the Holy Spirit guide your lives. Then you won’t be doing what your sinful nature craves. The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the Spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions.  Continue reading

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An Open Letter To My Readers

Whether it is through fictional representations of the imaginations found somewhere deep inside, or a transparent ministry of hope and healing found in the deepest recesses of the heart which sheds light in dark places with the intent of guiding others to their own victories, or the instructional wisdom found only in a life that has been there done that, it all matters.   Continue reading

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SOAP: Day Twelve – Which Well Are You Drinking From?

If you read my earlier post you’d know that I am still sitting in the fallout of an emotional bomb going off that I didn’t see coming. I have every reason to believe that God intends to meet me in this place with today’s SOAP. I pray that he meets some of you there too.  Continue reading

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